As with every women, we all succumb to needs that we cannot satisfy ourselves. Then their comes a time in your life when you feel completed fulfilled and happy, and then suddenly what you feel starts to fade out, not because you stopped loving or being in love, but more because the opposite party decided to retract and kind of do what they want then they want... and that's where the problem always starts.
How can you expect two people to have a common ground when 90% of time , you are the one putting in the effort, communicating effectively, being there for that someone in time of need, yet you don't feel you getting anything in return. You then reach a point of being drained out of exhaustion because you put your all into this partnership... question is, when is it enough?
On the one hand, you feel its pointless pursuing something that is headed to nomadic and sadic end, so why prolong the inevitable? Well, that's where my weakness resurfaces every time, I think I have too much hope and expectation of people, I forget what my expectations were in the first instance and why I decided to take that leap.
Mmmmm, I won't lie to you, but this is a tough decision, because in breaking a chain, you have to deal with what was created and nourished, the love and bond that transpires with getting to know someone, growing with that person, then all of a sudden smack bam, it has to come to and end.
One must never put one's happiness aside to accommodate and nurture your partners happiness. All it does is create frustration and you end up hating that person more because you wanted to pursue it, knowing you had the choice to end it, heal and move on.
At this stage, anger and fury still lingers in me, but I think I know what I have to do in order to deal and be happy again.
Until next time... Chow Bella :)
