How much is Enough?

Mmmm… I’ve been trying to get my head over and under the whole concept of being with someone and knowing if you should or should not give all, or how much is needed to create a recipe out of ingredients and ensuring it comes out maniafique?

Its weird how people enter in and out of your life leaving a tattoo of remembrance and experience, yet I always try to figure it out before it figures me out… and then it come flying back to hit my ass because of over analyzing my situation… if that makes any sense. I hate it if people are able to figure me out before I have even begun figuring them out… I mean am I really that transparent.. or maybe just handing myself out too quickly to people.

Yes, I guess it’s all a learning curve we go through, but how does one enjoy something with someone, not wanting to move fast, yet still finding that imbalance of crazy summer loving. Its hits you with a swooshhh like a huge wave and leaves you dangling and wondering if you going to come up for air, or just enjoy the ride…mmm?

Balance… is one way of looking at it, which I clearly have no sense of control or obedience. Its like you mind is telling you one thing but your heart is saying another. And I feel im in it for the right purpose, yet I allow myself to delve too deep that I can’t get out because I enjoy being consumed… (Shy face) That does sound a bit freaky but once you in my position, believe me it’s a total different ball game.

Then I have my guardian angels, friends and not forgetting my sister who are ringing and singing to me on a daily basis, and I thank you for drilling the important decisions into my head, which I know deep down I’ll have to sit down and draw up a checklist some time soon of myself and how much of what I’m doing is for me and whether or not I’m actually growing out of my experiences.

So… how much is enough? I don’t know, I think its different for every individual but the sometimes its not about the quantity or the quality, its just about knowing who you are as an individual and making sure you stay true to yourself and truthful to others.. and that way I don’t think you could go wrong. Well, I think I just answered my own question for today, lol!

Until Next Time… Chow Bela 

Much Luv… Mish.Dish