One always tends to think that getting yourself out of some or other situation is as easy as pie....but in fact its not that easy at all.
We keep telling ourselves that its going to be fine, but deep down we just can't face the truth about life and that its time to turn over a new page.
I find myself stuck right now, as I'm trying to do the right thing by not allowing myself to delve into the victim role where one ends up not being able to get out of.
I've been killing time in terms of dealing with my emotions by meeting new people and always being out on the go. Its like I'm so scared to face them (my emotions that is) because I might just fall back into the temptation hole and get back together with my partner of 4 years.
There has to be another way of doing this... but only I'm able to decipher my way out of this situation. I mean how does one show compassion and love to an ex partner without giving them hope inside that things will work out. Its so freaking hard for me as I still find myself loving him, but not inlove with him. And when I'm in a quiet space, our memories flash before me which leaves me missing him and totally confused.
The only thing really keeping me sane at this moment are special friends who have entered into my life and that have been very supportive and understanding.
All I know right now, is that deep down in my heart all I'm seeking for is unconditional love and peace within myself.
Much Luv...Mish.Dish
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