I forgive you...

Today I was wondering and pondering and yondering beyond and past my mind, thinking how I was going to forgive you, or just recover and move forward. But every time I would find myself wanting to speak to you,  and then It would  bug me, “ but why would you want to do that mish”, and then I’d just brush that thought from my thoughts and just continue my day.

But then I got a flash back of my childhood, and it all made sense why…

This may sound sooo cray cray, mad, crazy daisy, ditzy verby (Mish. Dish lingo), but when I was little, I was naughty (and naughty as in vrek (very) naughty), my mom or dad would chase me in and around the house with either the a wooden spoon, shoe or the belt. I would now and again escape from my mom because I was a fast runner back then, heheh, but then she’d eventually dawn upon me when I’m relaxing, thinking she’s forgotten, no menee, then there she catches me… overs ke-dovers (caught out). The funny part is that after being punished, no matter if you were my mom, my dad, Piettie or Koossie, I would always run back crying to my mom/dad and expect them to comfort me - and I remember saying "I'm sorry mommy"/ "I'm sorry daddy, I love you " and cry some more and eventually all would be forgotten and I’d be my old happy chappy old self again.

And that is how I would forgive, I would never be angry at them, I’d just love them all over again with no grudges. When I look back, and reflect on my life right now, I now understand why I love so easily and completely, and am able to forgive easily as well.

Don’t get me wrong, when someone hurts your feelings, it cuts deep, and yes it takes a while, maybe even years to heal from it, but knowing that they are there and you are here, I find comfort in speaking to them, it helps me deal in some weird way, just like when I was younger and found comfort in my parents. The same rule applies to the rest of my family and friends, it’s as if my love for friends and family are genuinely pure, and in the real world it’s so dangerous to open yourself up just to anyone, but that's where the learning experiences builds and molds you into a stronger being.

In seeking for ways to forgive you, I’ve realised that I’ve already forgiven you, its just the part of healing which takes place now.

That is all for tonight, hope I could inspire a soul or two.

Love & Light

Mish.Dish